I'm writing this, not for sympathy, or pity comments, but to remind myself that I AM a good mom. Right now my 2 year old is crying in my bed saying "mama please come back, i love you, mama please, don't leave me, please come back" and it's breaking my heart! but I am TRYING to get her to learn to sleep by herself! And to top it all off, I now have to put Oscar to bed too!
He is so sweet, he smiles and laughs as I change his diaper one last time and lay him in bed. He looks up and me and grins. Then suddenly he realizes what I'm doing and that I'm about to walk out the door and he is not coming with me. And his little lip starts to quiver...
This sucks.
It's just about more than I can bare listening to both my kids scream for me to come rescue them from bed time! Does it get easier? Do they start sleeping at some point with out you?
I know in about half an hour they will both be sleeping and I will feel better. Somewhat.
But until then. I need a distraction bigger than blogging can provide.
:-(
I remember putting Tillie in her room and she'd be crying and I'd sit on the floor in the hall I I'd by crying too!! It was HORRIBLE!!! It does get better, I promise!! Tough love is NOT fun!!! Hope they get sleeping better SOON!
ReplyDeleteYou CAN DO IT!!! I've made the mistake of putting my kids to sleep every single night of their lives, and now they just HAVE to have mommy put them to bed EVERY SINGLE NIGHT!!!! UGH!!! hang in there sweetie, it'll be SOO worth the struggle! :)
ReplyDeleteOh, that is so sad! And sweet! My kids don't cry for us, they happily watch tv for hours and hours and hours while they 'fall asleep' (and by that I mean jump on the bed, kick each other, read books, dance...). I almost wish they would cry for half an hour instead of being happy and awake for three hours during bedtime...
ReplyDeleteOh, that is the worst! My boys go through stages where bedtime is easy for a few weeks and then really hard for a few weeks. One of the things that made it easier was putting them in the same room together when Jack turned 1. They would talk and laugh together when I would walk away. But then sometimes they scream and cry together when I walk away...It really is so hard, and it seems like they always do that on the nights I need peace and quiet the most!! I still love the Babywise philosophies, but it's been so long since I've read it. Any tips on bedtime with older kids? Hmm... maybe I need to study up. We definitely have a hard time at bedtime too!
ReplyDeleteOh man! I am scared now! But you are definitely not a bad mom!
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