I'm struggling.
And it's stupid that I'm struggling.
Seriously.
A lot of women have gone without their husbands a LOT longer than I have this week.
And let's be honest, I have more friends here (that have kids Mak's age!) than I have EVER had!
The sun is also back (hooray!)
We have been playing outside everyday
Sticking to a schedule
The kids have been going to bed before 9 every night
(they still wake up 2-3 times though, boo!)
I am working out (somewhat regularly)
Finding more time for myself
And yet, I still find myself struggling through the day and night.
I have no complaints.
I know, it is completely and utterly my fault,
so I really am not complaining on here,
just reminding myself, that I am struggling and that I have no reason to.
With that being said,
I really miss this guy and his way of putting the kids at peace when I can't.
Saturday night can not come soon enough!
I'm just worried that I won't get him all to myself on sunday :-(
On another note,
my super emotionally sensitive daughter keeps coming to my rescue
and trying to make me laugh and smile.
I love her.
This is her "reading" a "birthday" card to me from Santa Clause
...with her reading glasses on (fake! just in case you couldn't tell)
She's also big on matching now, so if she's wearing something pink,
or in this case yellow, it's ALL got to be yellow! and she's a little obsessive about it to.
Seriously! The girls a better shopper than I am!
She will tell me what she likes and what she doesn't and she'll add the clothes that she wants to wear into the cart, and take out ones that I've added that she doesn't like.
Saying things like "oh mom, this is SO sweet! I've got to wear it everywhere!"
or "Oh I LOVE this! It's so CUTE!" or my favorite "uhmm, how about no, mama" or "No, I don't think so, that's yucky! How about THIS!" (flashes cheesy grin as she holds up whatever)
Yes, I love her and get totally stressed out by her, and scream at/with her then dance around the house singing the ABC's at the top of our lungs together.
Poor Oscar, doesn't know what to do with his bipolar Mother and emotional sister!
Good thing he's so mellow :-)
Love you Lady!!! Hang in there, if you need anything let me know. I know a thing or two about absent hubbys. :)
ReplyDeleteI doubt there is no reason for the struggling... You are important enough to say you have difficulties in life. I'm glad you can see the good in your life as well, but never say your struggling has no reason, please...
ReplyDeleteYou should have called me. Next time, if I read a post like this and you haven't called there are going to be heads a rollin'.
ReplyDeleteYou have been warned.
It is so hard to be without your best friend--it feels like mine is MIA a lot of the time--hang in there.
ReplyDeletebtw, Makayla sounds just too cute to be real ;-) that is hilarious about what she says when you go shopping!!!